Secret Garden

A friend (I shall protect her, hehehe) told me about a story of her friend and it kinda leave a deep impression on me. They say love is all around the corner; that you might and could find love at the strangest places as it pounds on you unarmed.

A Subway kind of love... will you fall for someone you meet in the train? Watching those Taiwanese dramas made me feel like it can happen but if you do fall for someone you meet in train, what did you fell for exactly? It is considered as love at first sight right?

What exactly does it mean by love at first sight? Is it loving the person's looks or the way the person carry himself/herself around or you just got shot by cupid instantaneously and decide that you just like this person? I don't get it :(

After hearing the story from my girl, I tried to be funny and looked around in train but the people I see... er, I should give up the idea of finding a Subway kinda love. hahahaha. I don't know what is the criteria to search for but I think the idea is so romantic, so fictional... yet a lil too unrealistic...?

Seems like people meet their other halves all around. In school, at work, through friends... on streets, in clubs, in trains... so amazing. Ultimately, it is how they work to keep the relationship going right? Ok people, let's all carry an open mind and keep our eyes wide ^^ hahahaa, this is an useless post... just the usual rant ;)

Ok, now I am fantasizing about myself having a warm cup of coffee in those atas cafe wrapped in a grey scarf, a turquoise beanie, a navy coat with black sweater inside and black boots, reading a book and then someone happened to be reading the same book as I am (hahahahahaha) then our eyes met and we smiled. So I go there everyday and he is there every time I visit :) (lol, what a lousy writer) er ok, end of story. I want a Starbucks kinda love then :) since people can have subway kind, clubber kind, old school kind... so cute.  Like the famous scene in "Secret Garden" where the female lead's lips got stained by foam from cappuccino and instead of telling her or wiping it with tissue away for her, the male lead kissed her to remove it! kyaaaaaaaaa!!! /sot tio 

And this is the legendary question I asked a few of my girls...
Would you rather have 2 years of passionate love or 20 years of simple, bare love?
Most of them chose the 20 years one while only one opted the 2 years of passionate love. For me (and ahem, another girl lol), we are a lil greedy. We want the simplicity of the most uncomplicated love but then again, we would like to experience the 2 years of craziness. Like feeling 101% in love every single day - from the moment you wake up till the second you enter your dreams. Waking up to morning kisses, making breakfast together in PJs, taking strolls, surprising each other with hugs from behind, watching movies at home and just be happy together :} I guess everything will be dramatised? A quarrel will lead to a huge fight and yet the hoaxing, mending, apologies, the making up will melt everything almost at the moment. Isn't it a must to experience this kind of love affair once in your lifetime? ^^ Getting swept away and losing all your senses... :}

However, as you get older... you change your direction of search and needs. You will most probably want stability instead of the insanity you get from the passionate love. Some people want the financial security, some want the reliability of the person's character... everything differs. Even right now as compared to secondary school, our wants and needs changed. A meal at mac or kfc used to bring us much joy but now, we want cafes. When we were much younger, any presents received will be much appreciated but right now, we get unsatisfied and more often, disappointed from time to time.

There is absolutely nothing wrong with 20 years of pure, simplicity kind of love. We all want that kinda assurance... waking up knowing that person will not disappear overnight and will always be there for you. It is not mundane... well, not exactly. There will be happiness and sense of security from it, I guess? Idk, I am greedy. I wish there will be 20 years of passionate love but it is impossible right??? ^^

We are all afraid to fall into a pit of darkness :( Tried walking on the road with eyes closed the other day and I couldn't helped but open my eyes... it is our instinct at work, isn't it? But if we don't take chance, we will never know... there could be a bed of roses waiting for us to land upon :} The fear of landing on a table of spikes, the free fall, not knowing how long it will take before we reach the ground took over us :( More often, we are not living our dreams but living by our fears.

And I've decided not to rant about my age anymore... though turning 20 is still a sad fact but I saw it on Tumblr that "Do not regret growing older. It is a privilege denied to many." :( Urgh. Seriously, people like me ought to learn how to count my blessings.

And and and I saw on Twitter today that you can make the same mistake twice but the second time you made it, it is a choice. How true~

So what kind of love are you looking for? :)